Jun 13, 2014

I miss you like crazy

I MISS HiM LIKE CRAZY.

Have you ever heard the moffats? I miss you like crazy?
I miss my boy like crazy now.
I cannot wait to see him soon.

After maternity, I thought.. Well this is it. Me being a mom. God knows it was not easy being a working mom when your child got sick.
What Vivy said is true. "Woman can't have it all" (I'm following proudduck.com).
Since I am working in shift, no one were there to babysit my son during weekend, And with my hubby focusing on his promising career, I need to be there all the time. The only option we had is to send him to nursery.
We choose "Dunia Elit". It was the best nursery in Puncak Jalil but still there is no guarantee,
So the scariest things happen to my boy. :"( And life was turning and spinning upside-down. My boy infected by flu viruses.
Imagine I extending my leave again after my almost 3 months maternity leave, leave me 6 days off. (pfftt rayaƄ how lah!).
With his running nose and coughing and got admitted, I finally decided to send him to my mom so at least by the time he's back to KL, his immune system can develop and be more matured with less risk. It was the best for 3 of us. Besides, I need to focus on my career after the looonggg leave (Eventho, I am blur on what to write on my first half appraisal, maybe having a child and on leave for 5 months :)"

You see, I have to wait another 1 month and a half to bring him back. But I am glad that we can have more time to provide my boy a better family-enviroment when hes back. Recently his dad installed aircond and coway filter and I think this week hes gonna housekeeping the store. Your papa is the best! While mummy have chance to shop and preparing your new clothes. Get well soon son!


 3 of us during his Akikah before turning 3 months. Love my hijab image here. Okay, love it and will don it~

 Him before physiotherapy session. :"(

 Me and him.. Aryan Haziq. Mommy enjoying first class service everyday. haha, Thank you insurance!
 During Neb session with papa

Our life for 2 months! 

Okay, mommy miss you honey!

May 10, 2014

Me and my thoughts on Mothers Day 2014

Its has been a while I din update this blog.
Today is my first time celebrating mothers day :).  So I decided to write what I felt as a mother.
And a little brief on what happened before I deliver the love of my life.

Before he was born.. hmmmm
Truth is both of us is financially struggling before he was born as so called unplanned pregnancy.
Causing me depressed and worrying all the time,
I got accidentally pregnant after spending ALL of our saving on our new house deposit, renovation and my husband buying his bike cash! and paying mimis car and I need to help my sister to build her life as she was jobless for months.
We never wanted to have a baby that year. yet!.
And yes I am happily pregnant and we started to do a checklist and budgeting our spending.
I remember last year I did sooo many OTs. haha! tiring!
I want to deliver at private hospital which of course cost us thousands.
My biggest fear at that time was C-SECT, it means that I need chip out thousand more from our pocket,
Whether I can provide my son a good life for his first year or not.
Whether Mimi is getting jobs or not.
Whether my motherhood can fit in with my work schedule or otherwise.
Whether I can fully breastfeed him and whos gonna taking care of him while I am working.
To summarize, my main concerns during preggy are money for the baby and pregnancy, mimi and her life.

But it was true that your child bring you luck!
Allahamdullilah both of us is getting so much helps from MIL and in laws family, my family, my friends, my colleagues and awesome manager!
And both of us manage to get all things prepared before Aryan Haziq born.
It was funny to see how my husband providing his very best for his child.
And right after Aryan Haziq was born, my husband got promoted to Senior Engineer and get major increment and 4 month bonus, wohoh apa lagi.
and the next following month he get another offer to be the manager next year. Safely signed.
And the MOST happiest thing happened, Allah had answered my prayer, Mimi get her first real job at the best MnC company!
Allahamdullilah my sister will begin her real journey as an adult, (If she go overseas for training, I will follow her, hehe)
And me, yes, I had the flexible shift to fit in my motherhood journey, which is the best for me to stay here. (I love my job by the way).
You see, your child bring rezeki for you.


Well, Let me introduce the love of my life.



Life is getting awesome because of him
Of course there are an upside down especially during confinement day( I am sooo sorry for my meroyan attitude ye Kakchik, Mimi, Mama, Aqilah, Hubby).
It takes a while to adapt my new life..
But things getting better each day and gradually become norm .
Having him in my life makes me a better person which is

- I wanted to do work better (I will fix my punctuality soon!)
- I wake up early and ok if not having enough sleep.
- I am now less worrying-sick about mimi, aqilah and syahirah (I know this bugging you guys but I am seriously love you guys so much, and especially mimi, I am so sorry if I hurt you in anyways, now you had your new life, I will try slowly to let you go).
- Me and husband now manage and spending our money wisely.
- I appreciate and love my mother more.
- I wanted to be good with the in laws. (I am blessed to have good SIL, MIL and BILs seriously! I love them so much!!)
- I wanted to understand myself better. I wanted to learn Islam more, Hopefully I will change to a better person soon!
- I treasure my time more nowadays

I do love my life and the person I have become now.Thanks to you Aryan Haziq and Hubby.

Feb 20, 2014

Memory Lane

Could not sleep. Arghh!! My baby is actively moving and rolling during night. Causing me heavy back pain if I lay down.
Look what I've found in Mimi lappy:



I think this is in my 2nd year degree.
Had been 9 years kot.. Oh how time flies. I love them equally. Realy make me worries , will I love my son like how I love my sisters? Boys. How to be their best friend? Should i worry if he fall or cry? Or let he be so he can be tough! oo how...
No Idea. #Fewdaysmoretogo.



Feb 3, 2014

A WAY TO HELP

Ramai antara kita cepat percaya pada news tapi baca je bukan nak google betul betul sahih ke tak cerita tu. cewah.
Ini iklan je tau. Tapi betul la kita ni duk baca news, tengok video orang share pastu percaya bulat bulat.
I was one of them. Tapi kat dunia ni banyak orang merana dan banyak benda kita tak tau.
Cepat psychologically impacted dengan propaganda.

Kita rasa takat 10 hengget apalah sangat. tapi ada orang yg sanggup membunuh utk RM10. Ada anak anak yg seksa lama tak makan.
Kalaula ada duit lebih a.k.a kaya raya memang da lama aku travel ke tempat yang memerlukan. Tolong.
Tapi tula... Masih bukan kategori itu.
Walau macam mana pun masih ada cara untuk kita menolong golongan golongan yang memerlukan.
Ramai orang yang duduk complain hidup susah. Payah nak cari duit. Belanja mahal (nama pun Malaysia) tapi pernah tefikir tak kita ada rumah, masih boleh makan. Ada baju lagi nak pakai.
Macam mana orang yang mati kelaparan? Xde bumbung nak berteduh?

Lepas aku baca pasal Rakhine riot 2012. ako tergerak hati macam mana ako nak tolong bangsa lain seagama dengan aku. Rohingya.
Actually korang pun boleh kalau nak.
Percaya tak kalau aku cakap BANGLA yang korang duk benci benci. Tu lah Rohingya.
Dorang ni Bengali from Bangladesh. Tapi Bangladesh halau so tu yang masuk Myammar. Dapat kerakyatan Myammar lepas tu kena halau lagi. Alah google sendiri la sapa dorang.
Tapi muka memang muka BANGLA ye puan puan.
Agama is Islam. So jangan duk prejudice sangat dengan BANGLA yang korang nampak.

2012, ako pegi register dengan UNHCR. Ada la mini interview. Masa tu banyak free time.
UNHCR akan tetapkan la apa yang kita bole bantu.
Apa-apa je keje volunteer. Expat banyak buat keje keje macam ni.
I vote for teaching. :)
Bila da involve barula tahu.. BANYAK gila refugee kat Malaysia. Serius orang Malaysia baik-baik.
Bila da involve barula tahu.. BANYAK gila support kita provide for them. Ada banyak agency.
Kalau nak tahu details, bole join UNHCR.
Actually bila da join, kita x bole reveal mana sekolah refugee, amek gambar dengan dorang, Any details strictly Private and Confidential. So x bole la ako nak share di sini ye.

Tapi sebab da preggy, I stop my volunteering service, plus kerja kan.
Masa jadi cikgu tu baru bole identified sapa Myammar, sapa Vietnam, Sri Lanka pun ada.. Tapi mostly sebenarnya muka BANGLA which is Rohingya. Lawat la centre dorang. Sorry x bole reveal kat mana.
Kesian tengok dorang. Sekolah buruk, baju buruk, badan bau macam x penah sabun.
Tapi cikgu cikgu seangkatan cakap x bole nak kesian sebab dorang datang illegally to Malaysia.
They should know we do them a favor by educate their kids.
We should make them understand if you want to stay in Malaysia, you should behave and respect Malaysian.

Tujuan sekolah sekolah di bukak sebab nak educate. Kalau duk biar anak anak dorang berkeliaran tak buat apa apa lagi la banyak crime rate.
Oh ya, dorang x bole suka suka hati kerja kat Malaysia. Dorang will be provided refugee card.
Setakat ni x silap (2012) seramai 90 000 ++ refugee kat malaysia. Daripada itu hanya 28000 Rohingya register.
So kalau nak kerja pun pandai-pandai la nak hidup sebab xde permit.
Contoh angkat barang, potong rumput, basuh pinggan.

SEBAB tu bahaya ramai pendatang asing wihout permit.
Kalau da ramai sangat datang, nak kerja pun x bole, mula la desperate buat benda bukan bukan untuk survive.
Logically crime rate makin tinggi.

Oh ya kalau rajin I will share article pasal Singapore, Indonesia suruh boat refugee (Rohingya) patah balik ke laut.
Tahun lepas (2012 to 2013) rajin duk baca article article ni.
Lately je isu berbangkit lepas ada news about ethnic cleansing kat Myammar.
X patut la genocide. Kalau 100 yang jahat habis sejuta nak kena bunuh ke. Sian perempuan dan anak anak yg xde dosa.
Malaysia je yang accept diorang. Tapi jangan cepat tersentap kalau kita suruh boat dorang patah balik ke laut sebab kat Malaysia sendiri pun da terlalu ramai pendatang asing.
Kita ada buat agreement dengan Australia untuk accept kita punya refugee. Bersyarat la of course.
Kena google balik article ni. I read somewhere before. Nantila share. Malas nak cari balik.
Takde la pandai sangat bab politics ni.

So,kawan kawan, if you really want to help.
You can help to volunteer yourself with UNHCR.
Macam-macam cerita direct from the source korang dapat tahu.
Bole tengok lifestyle dorang macam mana. Cara pemikiran dorang.
Maybe bole terjawab Sebab apa, Kenapa..
Tapi tanya secara berlapik. Isu sensitive ni bahaya.
Yang pasti hidup kita dan dorang macam langit dengan bumi
Bole dengar dari dua pihak

You can educate them to behave and be good if they want to stay in Malaysia.
Bole jugak ambik wife dorang suruh jahit jahit baju korang ke. Suruh laki dorang potong rumput.
Bayar la RM 10 - RM 20.

Tapi macam mana pun kena ingat culture dorang, pemikiran dorang x sama dengan kita. Kita sendiri kena berhati hati jugak.
Jangan sampai bawak balik anak anak dorang ke rumah. Bahaya. Bukan berprasagka buruk just be cautious.
Kalau korang nampak BANGLA tu ingat kemungkinan besar diorang is Rohingya walaupun dorang claim dorang BANGLA.

Toodles and good night













Jan 3, 2014

Taska Murah

Well since I am heavily pregnant and will deliver my baby anytime soon, of course finding a good nursery/baby sitter is a must.
But I think I will opt for nursery. susah kut nak cari baby sitter yang baik2 :).
But since price keep rising interm of EVERYTHING!! definitely next year I will be in tight budget.
I asked who is more superior in motherhood thingy. They told me it will defnitely cost me around 1500 to 2000 for my baby to have a good childhood life.
Well mainly in education, nursery, clothing, food and outdoor activity,
(To be honest me and hubby is not parent material. seriously!)

Recently there are too many heartbreaking stories about mishandling baby that causing instant death!
For me handling a baby is not easy. Trust me and it is a common fact.
My mom is a baby sitter. She instantly fall in love with Danish, Farish and Irfan.
All of my family member actually feel so thrilled to have boys in the family.
But it was HARD to find someone who is sincerely loving your child.

So, talking about the fee, most of us expecting to pay 200!! normal range for baby n KL is between 300 to 500,
Guys, be reasonable la sikit. If you paying only 200, how will the nursery make money?
The babysitter taking care your of child need, monitoring their movement, changing diaper, feeding them, educate them and you only expect to pay 200!!
Imagine 1 person to take care 10 babies, so nursery can only make MYR 2000?. Nak bayar babysitter lagi. Who want to live with the income below MYR2000?
It was reasonable to pay MYR500 above, BUT under one condition, the nursery have to maximize the babysitter and minimize the babies.
Let say 1 babysitter to take care 6 babies (maximum). [ONLY infant and do not mixed with toddlers]
So maybe her salary can range between MYR1200 to MYR1800. The rest goes to nursery. (Yela nursery janganla pikir untung je).

We as a parent have to think about babysitter as well. They surely want to make a living too!
Of course they want increment and career progress. Kan our currency value rendah, living cost tinggi.
Nursery pun satu, jangan la charge mahal2 and nak kejar untung je. They need to offer quality too.
It make sense nowadays, household income in Malaysia (2014) need at least MYR12000 to have a decent life.
Ako yang malas kerja pun pulun at least 4 days OT (40 hours) to achive decent money, so does nursery owner.
Lari topic jap.

Anak tu pembawa rezeki but x salah if you need to plan before ada anak.
As I said, our currency value rendah, living cost tinggi.
So kalau ada duit tu bayar je la taska yang mahal, janji ada quality.
This advice goes to me.

P/S: Acano nak buat? I think the idea of having retired/housewife to become babysitter ok kt. But we need to follow la their schedule 

Nov 16, 2013

Tips for jobseeker (Fresh graduate)

Sudah lama I din apply kerja since I am satisfied on my current salary and shift pattern.
Big thanks for my allowances and OT. chewah!! although someone seem not satisfied

But I am recently frequent Jobstreet user!! hehe And all jobs I applied were successfully reverted with an interviews!
Do not get me wrong, Actually it was for my sister. I doubt why she never get interviews at all.
So I promise to help her.
I did for the whole 1 weeks and some one did reverted.
So here is my advise for all Jobseekers out there,

Being relevant

You never ever being to picky especially when you are a jobless but you must be relevant!
For example, should you apply randomly?, I saw my sister even apply clerk position and admin things.
Not sure if she know what is that really mean. And some of the jobs which is not relevant and so random.
I applied most of her job in call centre cause I know demand is there and she can easily get between 2000 to 3000.
More over, big companies do need the service and you may built reputation. That is what I mean not being to picky.
Although it sound not related to certain majoring, but it does afford to build an experience and knowledge on how professional working environments look like.


Never count on orang dalam or friends.

Ini lagi satu minded typical.
Selalu nak harap orang dalam. Kerja x dapat but always said,  I got friends who can help. (konon guarantee the job is yours)
At the end mengangur for how may months. Jangan mengharapkan orang kalau diri sendiri x berusaha.
I used to listen to all this craps! Mostly memang x kan dapat kerja yang di janjikan.
You did not know that person and obviously he was not CEO or something. Who is he/she? Does he/she value to the company?
All bullshit so berusaha ok!
UNLESS you realy know them well and you know he/she valuable and determine and helping you. Give it a try but jangan mengharap.
In my case I do know certain people and I did make some calls to help my sisters. They cannot help much but they said they will give interviews slot.
Bukannya bagi kerja.

Interviews tips

Pernah dengar tak "listen to people older than you"??
Although they may not successfull in life but respect sebab they all makan garam terlebih dahulu.
Haha.. this I pointed out directly to my sister.
She even want to practice with her friend for interviews (not to mention driving miles away or wasting phone bills to talk craps about interviews).
I told her I will help her to face interviews before the statements.
As far as I concern the boy's job peanut and I doubt he ever interviews someone.
But anyway back to my main point.
Understand what interviewers want, basically it was about selling yourself to buyers.

Understand the tricks behind those questions

- Tell me about yourselve
- Why I should hire you
- Strenght / Weakness
- 5 years from now where are you

Make a script to emboost your communication skills during interview. I know she din know all this as I observed weeks/months before,
Lepas cakap baru la.. OK. Kalau buat2 tahu memang nak kena pelempang.
Maybe I can share the scripts here soon. So again never count on friends on something silly.

Follow up

After you applied the jobs, follow up! duh!
Write a letter, emails and make calls to follow up on your application.
Make a pitch, write cover letter and guna la ayat2 profesional.
Download la template kat internet tu. How you want to stand out when nobody notice you. duh!

Never give up

Da dapat kerja, never give up in looking something relevant dengan apa yang you minat.
Me for example, mula2 helpdesk for 6 month then IT management and then bussiness analyst , last last baru jadi network engineer which related to my degree.
Sama la my friend, mula mula HR, pastu barula lecturer yg related to her degree.
So never give up.
Do not be to picky as you need money to survive for that you need a job!

So good luck to jobseekers outhere


P/S: this notes not for anak2 org kaya ye. it goes to ordinary people like me
Plus the best jobs is things you like to do perhaps open a business,

Oct 25, 2013

Terrified

I just watch AMBANK robbery video clips. It really terrified me.
Deepest condolence to AMBANK robbery victim.
Perhaps we all need/have to beware of security GUARDs now.
Especially the one that we doubt about the background and nationality.
It remind me the child rape by the school security guard few years ago.
What happen to our society now?? sick!
Ask yourself really whats going on.

Ya allah selamatkan la suamiku, ibubapa ku, adik adik and my child dalam apa jua keadaan.
Biar nyawa ni jadi ganti. 
I do not think if I can survive if I lost any of them...

P/S: Feeling sad.... I hope pak guard to kena tangkap and kena seksa sampai dia sedar kejahatan diri dia.